So, for the past two weeks I have been totally freaking out. To say the least I have been overwhelmed. Job, studies, business, life,etc. Lots has been going on and I feel like don't want to do anything. What my mind actually does is a process of elimination. It decides which of the things I am doing is the least important. At least to my mind. So, about a week ago I decided I would be quitting my involvement with a Wellness Festival I am helping out. My mind tried to rationalize all the excuses as to why I do not need this extra time consuming thing in my life. Ive got so much other stuff going on, I could do without one more. I frantically wrote an unconscious email to one of my dear friends, who happens to also be involved in the festival. She wrote me back and told me to meditate on my decision a bit. That there was something more to this feeling. Why did I want to let something go. What was causing this feeling of being overwhelmed? There was something more. I meditated, in my own way, really opened up my Heart to it. Ah, yes my Heart.
When I opened up to my Heart, the feelings of being overwhelmed subsided and I was able to see clearer. I immediately was able to get done and manage the things I was feeling overwhelmed about. I was able to more forward and everything came together as it should. Not only do I play a great role in helping with this festival, but its plays a great role for me. Instead of feeling pressure, I saw the beauty of it and how it coincides with my life purpose and passion. My mind did not want to see that, my mind wanted to suppress and keep me in my box. So it created this feeling of being overwhelmed in order to keep me in check. Knowing that I would want to quite, because I have done it before. But my Heart is limitless.
There are times when we get stuck and we lose ourselves completely to our minds. Most times running around in circles, creating the same patterns. I am grateful for having such a beautiful friend to remind me to check in with my Heart, when I have moments of unconsciousness. This is why the roles of friends, family, coaches, teachers, etc are so important. I extend an invitation of gratitude from my Heart to my friend. Namaste.